Am doing an assignment right now...its 1750 words long......
I am trying so hard to find facts and add in my knowledge into the essay but I guess my brain ain't functioning properly right now due to the circumstances that I am facing in life right now.

Hmm. I guess the bitter part of it is, I have an assignment due and 2 test on Week 6!

Gosh..-______-
Lord! Give me the concentration when I am weak, guide me, help me, teach me and walk with me!

My Life

Had another day filled with lectures again. Am so tired now but I decided to blog instead. Just got back from 4 hours straight of lectures and a 2 hours demonstration class.

Was walking back when I started reflecting upon my life. The life that I sometimes feel ashame of, proud of, contented with, or uncontented with. Was sharing an offering message the other day bout how offering is not only about giving our finances to God but to give everything. Yes! When I say everything, it means EVERYTHING. Are you afraid?

Let me show you the complete picture. How many times in life have I doubted God by holding back on things such as finances, difficult situations, studies, and ministry. But yet, I am still being constantly reminded of God's faithfulness towards me..through Good times or Bad times. You see, when we commit our lives to Jesus, our lives won't be ours anymore, it will be completely His. So why do we worry at times at simple things such as who is going to clean the house...etc. etc.

I have to say, I worry over little things sometimes. Mind you, I am human too eh? So yes I worry, but the biggest mistake I make when I worry is entertaining those thoughts. I hate them.
HATE THEM.

That's why everyday that I live is an act of faith by putting my complete trust in Him knowing that I will excel in every area of my life. I live by faith and wisdom that God has planted in my Heart.

And that is why I would like to make a public declaration that MY LIFE IS COMPLETELY YOURS JESUS!

Expressing My Love For God Through Photos.

Love the sky, especially in Malaysia, love driving in highways and looking up into the sky, reminding myself,"one day, one day I will be up there with God, holding His hand and talking to Him, telling how much I love HIM."

Fog covering the area, like how God's love overflow my heart everyday of my life!

Another shot which reminds me how God has created this place.

Hibiscus, my nation's national flower.

I am so tired of running the race. The race of life, being stuck between studies, family & friends, and ministry. I feel like letting go of things, I thought I was very strong but now I feel weak. I am just...me after all.

I thought I am a man but nope, I am not. I am still searching for the sole purpose of life given to me by God. I want a life filled with expectations and dreams. But not my dreams, Godly dreams.

I hate winters, gloomy skies make me depressed thinking the Home I have left. Yes, there is political instability, and yes, it's not safe there like it use to be but I refuse to let go my hopes for my nation.

I want to see people reaching out to God in my nation, I want to see my nation strive, and I want to see families coming together as one.

God hear my heartbeat please, feel my heartbeat...this is all I ask...

I woke up around 9.50 this morning to the sound of driplets of rain. Somehow I like rain because it gives me somekind of peace and it also brings me back some memories. Like how I use to run in the rain during high school days with a bunch of good friends that I no longer keep in touch with. Hmm...along the way..I wonder what happened to this bunch of friends. Where are they? It's not my fault that I lost touch with them..at least I have taken every effort to do so.



People, how can I describe the term "people" in my life...I guess I can summed it up by saying people come and people go in my life but some stay. I hate seeing my friends leaving me at times but I guess people will go but the memories we shared together remains forever with us.

So yeah, why do I love people?? I guess it's because some people have played a really significant role in my life and now it's my turn to keep the cycle going by treating others better!

Simple Thought

So...I attended another pioneer meeting today on a rainy Friday night. Was really fun and exciting connecting with my Urbs..especially getting to know a few of the individuals better. Learnt quite a number of things today like making calls and stuff. Besides, the meeting was really encouraging as different members from different groups shared their testimonies of their first Ul. So yeah! It was really encouraging as testimonies are meant to glorify God and also to encourage our brothers/sisters.

But yeah coming back to new people, I am really excited for my next Ul as we have quite a number of New People to call and bring for Ul. And I am getting really to know my leader and friends better. I guess the saying in Malay,"tak kenal maka tak cinta" is really true. How can we love someone we don't even know? Haha...this applies to our God as well. How can we love our God so much if we don't even know Him and give Him a chance to enter our life. I wonder sometimes, why do I love God so much?...I guess the definite answer to this is through the time I spent with God..the walks I take...the devotions I do with Him...

So yeah! If you want to know someone...I reckon you got to spend more time with him/her.

And not only that, we should give everyone a chance to enter our life as Jesus didn't give up on us at all!